Thank God for Kiki

Thank goodness for Kiki as she always provides me Meme's which are a nice break from all the complaining I tend to do on this blog! xoxo

GRUB -OLOGY
What is your salad dressing of choice?
Blue Cheese, but since I am pregnant and can't eat that...the new Wishbone spray Italian. I could squirt it right into my mouth.

What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
I can't pick just one, sorry. I don't discriminate.

What is your favorite sit down restaurant?
The Palm...lobster! YUM!

On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant?
20%, except we went to Carrabba's this weekend and the lady was a bitch, so we only gave her 15%. I know, I am so scandelous.

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
Nothing during this pregnancy yet has been that good to me.

Name three foods you detest above all others.
Just three? ONIONS! YUCK! Green beans and any other green vegetable.

What is your favorite dish to order in a Chinese restaurant?
Hunan Beef

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
extra cheese and pineapple

What do you like to put on your toast?
jelly and butter

What is your favorite type of gum?
fruity extra sugary kind

BI-OLOGY
What do you consider to be your best physical attribute?
I don't know at this point in time as pregnancy makes me feel completely unattrative. Maybe my eyes?

Are you right handed or left handed?
right

Do you like your smile?
Yes, more as I get older

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Maybe...Maybe not.

Would you like to?
Not at this point in my life...although if I can't lose this baby weight, I might be singing a different tune.

Which of your five senses do you think is keenest?
Is memory a sense? I remember the most randomest things. Also, my sense of smell is like has never been before and I miss the days of smelling ignorance.

When was the last time you had a cavity?
I probably have one right now. I always have cavities. See above favorite kind of gum.

Do you have 20/20 vision?
Hell no, but I wish I did.

What is the heaviest item you lift regularly?
hmmm...my belly?

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
Not that I can recall.

MISC-OLOGY
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to.
Um, no! Have you met me? I worry about everything...I don't need anything extra to obsess about.

If you could change your first name, what would you change it to?
Starkeisha. KIDDING! I like my name.

How do you express your artistic side?
I used to scrapbook and write a lot...hopefully when my energy tank is replenished, I can start back again.

What color do you think you look best in?
Before I was pregnant and when my hair was blonde (which I have gone brown for my pregnancy) I looked good in pastels and black. Because I don't go out in the sun now and I am not used to my hair, I haven't been wearing my normal colors well. Maybe red?

How long do you think you could last in a medium security prison?
Sometimes when I am completely stressed out...I think about how nice it would be to be in prison and not have to worry about any responsibilites and have time to read. I am sick.

Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
I read somewhere that humans swallow spiders in their sleep (Sorry, Holli!) I am sure when I was kid I ate lots of non-food items by mistake.

If we weren't bound by society's conventions, do you have a relative you would make a pass at?
I have very good-looking cousins, but no thanks...we share blood.

How often do you go to church?
Not nearly as often as I should.

Have you ever saved someone's life?
No, but would hope I could if push came to shove.

Has someone ever saved yours?
My friends and family save my life everyday.

DARE-OLOGY

For this last section, if you would do it for less or more money, indicate how much. (Note: I love this game and always play it with people when I am bored.)

Would you walk naked for a half mile down a public street for $100,000?
Duh, I would probably do it for like a dollar.

Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
If she was hot.

Would you have sex with a member of the same sex for $10,000?
If her God-given name was Angelina Jolie.

Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
Um no....I am entirely too vain.

Would you never blog again for $50,000?
Probably.

Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
Yeah, unless it was in something called "Hot Dumb Bitches" or something to that effect.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Hell no. I wouldn't do it for 10 times that much. We were at a Mexican resteraunt not to long ago and my husband was dared to drink the entire bowl of spicy salsa through a straw. I was real proud.

Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
No, I am not God.

Would you shave your head and get your entire body waxed for $5,000?
Thanks, but no thanks.

Would you give up watching television for a year for $25,000?
Hell to the no. I am crazy, but not that crazy. I can't live for a year without the Y&R!

Just Another Day

Yesterday I went to the neurologist for my migraines, as my OB was at a loss. I waited for 2 hours and then saw the doctor for LITERALLY less than two minutes. During this amount of time he told me that I could take medicine in a trial (right, I want to be a guiney pig while I am pregnant) for high blood pressure...which might be able to help migraines. Had he stopped to check my chart he would have noticed that I have seriously low blood pressure. I told him this would not be an option to which he replied, "Sorry then I can't help you." Fuck you very much is what I should have said back.

I then waited an eternity to check out...I was the only person there...his staff was as rude as him and the bill for my two mintues was over $200. I was so furious about the entire thing. Part of me wants to write a letter telling how poor I thought the service was...part of me wants to key his car.

In other news, save for a few pregnancy temper tantrums that I have thrown today...I have been doing okay today. I had lunch with an old sorority sister and it was good to catch up and gossip about the good ole days for a while.

We are going to my grandparents in another state this weekend and also going to see my dad. I am already apprehensive about driving so far. I get exhausted just going up the street. But I am less than thrilled about having to spend the weekend with my father who is the most selfish person I know. But just like all the other million things in life, we sometimes have to do things we don't want to because they are "right."

I also want to thank everyone for their sweet comments and support as I have been going through this difficult time. It really means so much!

No Rest for the Weary V. 2

I am trying so hard to maintain a positive attitude. It is terribly hard.

Overwhelmed would completely describe my current state of mind. I have found that working a 40-hour week in addition to being pregnant is so hard on me. My job gets more stressful everyday, which makes me more and more unhappy everyday. I am pregnant and need the security so it isn't like I have any options.

Since I have been off my migraine medicines (which I have been off since we started trying to get pregnant in Febuary), I have at least a headache everyday and a migraine about 3 times a week. I have medicine that I can take while I am pregnant...but it is too strong to take while at work...and I feel guilty when I take it. It is super strong and I know the baby gets everything I ingest.

I am also super-emotional which isn't exactly conducive to a work environment. I just feel as though I spend every waking moment here at my job. I get up, go to work, come home and go to bed two hours later. By the time the weekend comes around, I am too exhausted and emotionally drained to do anything. I feel as though there is no respite.

Surely there is more to life than this...

I keep desperately trying to rework my ways of thinking so that all of this won't seem so overwhlming, but I am not having so much luck.

One of those days...

You would think I would be able to catch a break...you would think.

It was the weekend and all I wanted was to enjoy it. To no avail. I had a migraine all weekend and the nausea returned. For the past two weeks, I have been eating things I actually want. Not anymore...this weekend it was like torture to get down two bites of anything. And I only did so, because I felt guilty for not feeding the baby.

Cut to last night. I am trying to relax on the couch and watch Big Brother All-Stars. It is dark in the living room and next thing I know...my cat has attacked me and latched onto my leg with her teeth and claws. Of course, I become hysterical and my leg is bleeding everywhere. I think I was upset that she attacked me but also worried becauase I am pregnant and don't want toxoplasmosis.

I have finally had enough of this day and decide to go to bed early so I will be well rested for work the following day. It starts storming. And I wasn't really mad, because we have been needing rain so much.

I am finally about to fall asleep when I hear this super loud thunder followed by this crashing noise. Needless to say, me and the baby jumped a mile out of the bed. I go into the living room and the damn house had been struck by lightening!

There were picture frames all over the floor and while the power hadn't gone off...the lightening had somehow killed two TV's (one of which was brand new), two DVD players, a DCT box, our computer modem, computer and...the air conditioning!

Okay, now I was upset about the other stuff...but I am pregnant! I need the AC! I slept on and off (mostly off) last night in 80+ degree weather. I live in the deep south where it doesn't really cool down at night, so opening the windows was not an option. Plus I live on a pond and the frogs are loud enough as it is.

Thank goodness we had hot water this morning. But if we can't get the AC fixed today, we will have to find somewhere to stay. And are waiting to hear what our homeowners insurance will cover. Even if they cover everything...we are trying to save for a baby and the future and a $500 deductible is not exactly conducive to that.

Le sigh. Needless to say, I am so tired and totally struggling today. I can do this...I can do this...

I will post again later today with the meme Kiki just did.

Thanks for letting me vent! xoxo

Sunday Scribblings on Monday- Hotels

I love hotels because staying in one usually means I am on some adventure in another state or country than my own.

My most recent memorable hotel stay was this past March for my 4th wedding anniversary. My husband and I stayed at the Westin on the beach and it was marvelous.

We booked the romance package and it really was just that. When we checked in, they brought us up some chocolate-dipped strawberries and a bottle of champagne. Which I then enjoyed in a big bubble bath.

The first night we were so tired, so we ordered room service. It was easily one of the best meals I have ever had and all I ate was a cheeseburger and some pecan pie.

The Westin brags about their Heavenly Beds and I can easily vouch for them being heavenly. We rented Brokeback Mountain on Pay-Per-View (you know I couldn't get my husband to the theater to see this) and layed in bed all night watching movies, TV and just relaxing.

We awoke to the breakast buffet of omelets, hash brown, bagels, fruit and fresh juice. Such a good way to start the day.

During the day we went shopping at the outlets and window shopped motorcycles. We went to the marina and ate lunch. It was an overcast day, but lovely nevertheless.

We ate Japanese that night. I had some wonderful sushi, steak and shrimp. It was so wonderful.

We went back to the hotel and relaxed. We had another wonderful breakfast before we left the next day to go home.

It was just what we needed as we celebrated our anniversary and were trying to have a baby. my only complaint was the screaming kids in the room next door. Hello, we booked the romance package...

Freedom Doesn't Last Forever

I'm so tired...

I want to lay in bed and read all day. I want to spend the day on a raft in the pool. I want to contemplate my existance and dream about the yesterdays and tomorrows. I want to live my life the way I did before I had a zillion responsibilites.

Instead I will work everyday. I will stay up most of the night. I will throw up many times throughout the day and pray I don't get a migraine. I will pay bills and balance a checkbook.

Life as a grown-up makes me so tired...

Word Association

I stole this from Kiki!

One Word for......
yourself = tired
your partner = comfort
your hair = struggling
your mother = hilarious
your father = handful
your favorite item = ring
your dream last night = non-memorable
your favorite drink = coke
your dream home = safe
the room you're in = dull
your pleasure = family
your fear = sickness
where you want to be in 10 years = happy
who you hung out with last night = toilet
what you're not = judgemental
your best friends = lifeline
wish list item = December
your gender = woman
the last thing you did = work
the last thing you ate = chocolate
your life = a lot
the last person you talked to on the phone = work
who are you thinking of right now = baby

Wanna play??

Random Things About Me

I never did the "100 Things About Me" tag and figured now was a good a time as any. I will probably break this up into maybe 25 at a time.

1) I didn't learn how to ride a bike until I was in 5th or 6th grade. (stop laughing)

2) I first played spin the bottle at my 7th grade birthday party where I made out with a couple of boys who are still some of my best friends.

3) I did gymnastics in the 4th grade talent show to "Cover Girl" by the New Kids on the Block.

4) I loved to roller skate as a kid. I would love to go roller skating now.

5) I had my first real panic attack in the 6th grade.

6) On an 8th grade ski trip, I forgot to put the seat up on the bus bathroom and I peed all over the place. When the bus started moving, pee went everywhere. The bus driver pulled over and said, "We are not going anywhere until I find out WHO PEED ON THE FLOOR!" I almost died and never told.

7) My cheerleading squad got suspended from all the away games one season because some of the girls mooned our coach out the bus window. It was guilt by association. My parents still think I was the one who did it.

8) Before we were 16, my best friend and I stole some other girl's car at a sleepover to look for this guy that she had just broken up with car. We found it and wrote "DICK" in shaving cream all over it.

9) In early high school my parents never trusted me to stay alone when they went on vacation. So they got a nun to stay with me.

10) When they did let me finally stay alone, I rewarded them by drinking their bottle of vintage and special edition tequila. I then refilled the bottle with a bottle of $5 tequila.

11) I also would fit ridiculous amouts of people in the jacuzzi in my parent's bathroom.

12) When I was 17, I almost cut my finger off cutting a bagel. It was bleeding everywhere and I ran to the neighbor's house. My parents got home and found blood everywhere and freaked out. I got 11 stiches and can feel electric currents through it when I pass cell towers.

13) I got my first tattoo on my senior year high school spring break. It was totally random, but I still love that it represents such a great time in my life.

14) After graduation I went to Mexico with my parents. I met a boy there and we kept in touch for years, dating off and on and flying across the U.S. many times to see each other. My parents wanted me to marry him. He is now an orthodontist. I saw him on FaceBook a while ago and he looked FINE!

15) I love roller coaster rides, fair rides, hay rides...you name it.

16) Once in college, my best friend and I went to a club downtown and valet parked our car. We had this ridiculous boy band keychain and we couldn't find it. We proceeded to accuse the very male, very straight valet of stealing it.

17) The same best friend and I once snuck under the bus at the 98 Degrees concert so that we could get up close and personal with Nick Lachey. (Before he was Nick Lachey.)

18) In college, I had massive insomnia and sometimes took Ambien. (also known as Mexican LSD for those in the know.) I once let a boyfriend perform foot surgery on me, spelled out obscene words in glow in the dark stars on my ceiling, and did numerous "drunk-dials." Or in this case, Ambien Dials.

19) Once a guy I was dating took an ambien and passed out in my bathtub. So my roommate and I proceeded to dress him in girl clothes, put make-up on him and take his picture. He actually wanted a copy of the picture. He didn't get the nickname Dum-Dum for nothing.

20) When my parents lived in Europe during my college years, one of my sorority sisters got plastered at a McDonald's in Belgium (they served beer there) and my parents had to come pick us up.

21) I thought most of being in a sorority was absolutely ridiculous. Now I miss it so much.

22) One of my neighbors in college had a 4-Wheeler. I was outside in my pj's. I think it was a moo-moo (which I love). I asked him if I could drive it. I mashed the gas instead of the breaks and plowed into the back of my own car in front of like 50 people.

23) In college, I went on several dates with a boy who had been my boyfriend in the 5th grade.

24) I had another neighbor in college who got drunk and naked all the time. He would run around in cowboy boots and nothing else. He had the smallest penis I have ever seen. Finally, I took a picture of him and wrote on it, "Stop Doing This!" and put it in his mailbox. I never saw him naked again.

25) Every Tuesday I went to a party thrown by the fraternity that I was a little sister to called Tequila Tuesday. Where everyone just took shots of tequila all night long, straight from the bottle. I don't know how I managed to make it to class the next day.

***Okay, somehow the majority of these ended up being about drinking and other craziness. We'll see where the next 25 leads me soon.***